Sunday, October 25, 2009
life is so tiring, i am so tired
my heart is so pain, be it family, love i am tired to go on
le..
i am real scare that history will repeat
i really wan a break
my family is really falling apart..
i miss my past..
when i see my mum teared i really regret and i feel her pain and i feel tat i am a shit daughter.
where am i when she need mi, when she is lonely??
i hate my job now, always work plus with all the stupid shift, i cant even company her.she needs mi badly now..
seriously fuck tat person.really fuck her...is all because of that person makes mi suffer so much.
i always tot tat i can control everything, everything is under control but now i
alr cant control
le..i lose my power
le..
and my love life is like a mess now..
i am really tired to face all these drama everyday..i hate dramas
and how cool is that not knowing that did your mother fainted? drunk? or sleeping too much sleeping pills...and carrying her up on bed when she collapsed in the toilet.
i wan my past back., i wan how my family use to be. i wan my mum to be happy like how she use to be..i wan to be happy like how i use to be..
i really wan the past back..
i have no one to turn to cause no one will understand , everything is just so drama
i am sorry mum..you wont be alone.
i hate you but i love you
alot..
my heart is really tired
le.
i just need a break from everything..
i seems to cant make any decisions anymore..
i need nothing and no one now but peacefulness
its just so unfair for mi..
i am really devastated...really lost
2:36 AM
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
-mourning
-acceptance
-letting go
-moving on
-survival
i need nobody but time,
9:17 AM
