Wednesday, March 18, 2009
do you all feel afraid b4?? rite tis moment..I DO!
tis is a first time i am really afraid, afraid that things might get out of my control..i always tot tat things, emotions, lifestyle, ppl around mi that play a role in my life are not scary..cause i can noe wat is rite and wat is wrong..untill i come across god's will.
fear of someone leaving you especially your really loves one..someone who really take care and onli one who is sincere and truthful to you...tis freaks mi out...
i really cant imagine and i refuse to even think about it..but i noe..tis day will come..soon or later..just tat i am not ready..i am afraid tat i don have the chance to express to tat person and tell him...how much i will miss him.
ppl say he is getting skinner, lost appetite and looks tired...but i keep saying no he didnt!! am i lying to myself or just trying to convince myself with lies??
i hate lies..but all of the sudden..i feel like living in a world full of lies..!!
we talk about it again today..out of the sudden, i cant control my tears onces again..
i am really looking forward to the taiwan trip..cause after so many years..finally we have a chance to travel together again..i thanks god for that..
but thinking of the reason for the trip, it just turn happiness into disaster.
it might be the last trip, and tats when the fear pops in..
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