Tuesday, October 07, 2008
its been a tough week..
received a sudden call from my sister..
my nanny's son was dead without any reasons...he just collapse..
had a tough time spending the rest of my time staying in class acting nothing happen, so i broke down and cry..
all of the sudden..all the memories we had b4 just flash pass my mind..
and imagine how my nanny going to accept the fact..
i am so worry for her.but i cant be there for her at tat point of time..
went to the funeral with a very very heavy and uneasy feeling.
when i reach there..like what i expected..she really break down and cried, she was so pain and hurt..it was too sudden for her to accept the fact tat her son left her at the age of onli 27.
she has been crying non stop from morning till night hugging his son pillow.
i can feel the pain she was going thru and it definitely affect mi seriously..
i promise not to cry but i cant..tears just rolled down as i see the situation there,how aunty molly broke down and fainted and as i walked pass jeremy kor kor's peaceful body..
it was really so unexpected..till now..i cant stop thinking of the days we once spent together and how aunty molly doted her son..
my heart is full of different kinds of emotions now..unexplainable..
without even able to calm myself down..
my sister tell mi again tat my popo might be having cancer..
OMG OMG OMG..!
NO...SERIOUSLY PLS GOD..
I DON WAN HER TO HAVE CANCER..
i really love her so so so much..
she is old le..
i just wan her to spend the rest of her life peacefully AND healthy..
i really don noe how will i react if she really have cancer..and yet we cant take care of her in singapore.
mum was shock and down when she heard tat news too..
she didn tok for a very long time..just a few simple nods..
report will come out tml ...
god pls..
help mi..help her..help us..
if she have cancer..i will nv forgive myself cause i nv did my fullest part and didn company her enough yet
10:27 PM
