Tuesday, July 22, 2008
I can still remember like yesterday
We were so in love in a special way
And knowing that your love willmake me feel oh so right
But now I feel lost, don't know what to do
Each and every day I think of you
Holdin' back the tears, I'm trying with all my might
Because i've gone and left you standing All alone
And I know i've got to face tomorrow On my own
....But baby....
Before I let you go
I want to say I love you
I hope that you're listenin'
'Coz it's true,baby
You'll be forever in my heart
And I know that no one else will do,yeah
So before I let you go
I want to say .....
I love you
I wish that it could be just like before
I know I could've given you so much more
Even though you know I'd given you all my love
I miss your smile,
I miss your kiss
Each and every day I reminisce'
Coz baby it's you That I'm always dreaming of...
Coz Letting love go is never easy
But I love you so
That's why I set you free
And I know
Someday
SomehowI'll find a way
To leave it all behind me
Guess it wasn't meant to be
But baby.........
So before I let you go
I want to say.......I love you .
9:10 PM
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
went to malayisa on sunday
my cousin de cafe
and how stupid i am to kick on a durian
after school went to play badminton
went to airport after tat..
alot of ppl man..
so if you got weak heart..pls don scroll down
8:32 PM
Saturday, July 12, 2008
we had a chat for 1 hour and 14 mins and 19 sec last night..it was real,i feel like going back to the start when we first met...
i already explain why to you le..
nothing is call cant take it..caue everything in life is about accepting the facts..
your every moves and every msg..including every memories we had made mi tear,everynight..
don have to go listen to wat ppl says..
cause end up..the onli person you are going to listen to..is yourself..
i am depress..and real depress..
i always smoke now..cause i expect something when i am smoking at tat place..but always,nothing happen..
since your side..alot of ppl noe le..i also don have to hid le..
friends out there..i had step onto the brake into tis rs..because of some reasons..
everyone keep saying about him..it hurts so so much.when looking for your class,everyone will start asking mi..and i will feel speechless..
to mi..you are the best i had..like i say..i no need to have you forever..at least i have you b4..tats enough le..i am contented le..
maybe now we cant continue..but i really believe on fate!
doesnt mean i didn show i am sad means i can live on happily..is beause i don wan ppl's mood being affected by mi..
SOR BOON TING IS SAD AND DEPRESS..but living happily..
tats all i can say!
take care
1:05 PM
Thursday, July 10, 2008
now..
taking bus,
walking,
listening to mp3,
taking cab,
sleeping,
walking in school,
working in tapas,
playing mj,
singing k,
watching movies,
cooking,
and many many more stuff tat i do now..
i feel so torture..
on the surface, i am strong and happy..inside,everything is falling apart..
all the memories are coming back .ALL OF IT..
12:50 AM
Monday, July 07, 2008
i feel so disappointed tat i am born in tis family of mine...once again..i visited the hospital..seeing my mum trying to kill herself again..
to save,i tried by climbing thru the window and finally she decided to open the door..i saw blood on her wrist and she fainted due to overdose of sleeping pills.luckily i get hold of her..
we called the ambulance and she was been rushed to nuh.
doctor ask us to go home first so we did and we reach home at 4am..mum called us at 5 plus 6 and start to make things bigger and bigger..she insist to be discharge..we got no choice but to rush down to the hospital..she cried,scolded,and cursed everyone she see especially mi,my sis and my dad..including the doctors..everyone in the hospital noes her le..feel so hopeles and helpless..we cant cancel the genting trip so we still went to genting..
the weather was cooling and refreshing..
but we didn enjoy the amount of time we spent there..cause its so limited..
totally knock out at around 10 plus..and woke up at 12.45 am to catch the movie "WANTED"
crazy rite..sleep halfway then wake up watch movie..haha
it was a nice one..but we love it..expect for my cousin who snored thru out the movie..
didn manage to go outdoor due to the cloudy weather and the limited of time given..sis and cousin went to casino(a must for them)while mi and baby went around to shop..
on our way back..things were screw up..its a long story..so'guess it yourself..haha
we senses something wrong..cause we nv heard anything from my parents..we called them and then found out tat thing there were getting pretty serious..mum wanted to jump off the building once again..worst..tis time at my auntie house..and my dad had some misunderstanding with my auntie..
tis time round so many ppl are involve..my uncle,three auntie,my dad,my mum and my grandma..from wat i heard is my grandma also cry..
i was super piss..they ask tat woman out without mi and my sister there..when problem comes onli we are the one settling it..and now..such a big thing..we didn even noe about it..
think now they finally noe how it feels like when my mum start her suciding thoughts..they been thru it one day..but for us is 4 years..
i have no face to face my cousins and relatives le..
its mean ..but if i noe tis kind if things will happen in my family.i will rather not born into tis family..but since i am here..its my responsiblitily to take care and hold tis family together..afterall..i still love them so so much!things have been changing lately..be it my family,friends,or bf..
baby..i am sorri..
my heart says yes,nv give up
but my mind says no..
and sadly..
i cant change the fact tat i always follow my mind when i do or handle things..
i have tons of things tat i wanna to tell you..and tons of emotions and feelings i am feeling and facing thru rite now..
don doubt mi,from wat you are feeling now..i am facing exactly the same feelings and i didn feel better at all..!
perharps..it will be the last one
my new tatoo!!
super tired..dead on bed!
10:11 PM
went to malayisa on sunday
my cousin de cafe
and how stupid i am to kick on a durian
after school went to play badminton
