Friday, November 23, 2007
my school is like full of cats and kitten..actually intend to bring one home..but i knew mom will kill mi..so reluctantly i leave the cat..its so cute althought its claws are so sharp..ouch pain when i carry..but i still like animal so so so much!think i should go zoo to work..haha then can interact with animal..
had my tr today..tired...then went to mac...
tml will be a long day..
going to have tr from 10 am - 3 pm..then work ,also serving..from 4 to 10.30pm..think i will be zombie when i get home...
i am crazy..now always work..i also don noe why..maybe to prove to ppl tat i am not a gal tat onli noe how to take money from mummy and shop and shop non stop..i can support myself and not depending on any one..but how ppl think abt mi i don care la..as long as i noe i am not can leh..althought i do spend lotss of my mum and dad de $$ but when i get my pay i will still buy them things and give them $$ even i don have le ..
remember last time i got a pay of 200..its is onli a little la..but i give 120 to my mum and 50 to my dad..left 30...but i feel happy..cause its more meaningfull to give them rather then shopping and spending on things just for yourself..
from young i was taught how to be a good daughter,a good sister,a good friend, a good granddaughter or even a good gf..but seriously..how good i am..i seriously don noe..but i will work to the best to fulfil the about GOODS..
no body is perfect..but we can work to perfect..
sometimes i will wonder..have a did my part to be a good friend??have i understand my parents enough and really well prepare to share all of their loads.??have i visit my grandparents often enough and spent time with them??or have i always be there for mi my sis when she needs mi..??will i be 24 hours tat for my bf when he needs mi??
my mind is full of questions..in life,not everything is nicely plan for you de..you have to work it out yourself..
but i nv regret..cause i knew tat i do everything using my heart to do and trying to do it to the best..people ask mi..when you are giving a chance to rewind or stop the time..will you?? my ans is no..cause life have to move on..its all fated wat will happen,instead of complainting it, accept it and change it...tis is wat life is about..facing obstacles,facing all sorts of problems.tat will make your day like shit..but when you can solve..you are the god man..even small problems like your house's fan spoilt and you fix it..you will feel great too..its human nature
instead of having a dull life to be nobody..i wanna to be somebody not to show ppl i am great or to attract attention but to let myself noe tat..i didn pay off my time of living in tis world..cause i do things tat i enjoy and nv regret..
if i have to regret..omg...i will be a very very negative person le..haha
for wat..always think of sad things.live life happy..always smile..nothing will help if you keep thinking..instead solve it,face it ,handle it and you will find tat the door to happiness and successful life will always be open for you
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