Monday, November 26, 2007

sunday..

headed to kk hospital..i new life was born in my family..we were all so happy and excited to welcome the tiny small new life to the world..wanting to protect him..!!

i was so touch when i saw tat small but powerful and full of strenght de life given by my cousin..its was hard on my cousin..cause the baby don wanna to come after more then two days...its over le..i will dote him with my life...and give him the best..

..welcome trisan to the world and the world full of surprises awaits you

sparkle

sham

behind the lorry...windy..i love it..

sat..

was so tired and lazy to go anywher..but i register for the dance lesson..so happy!! then when to pig de friend's house then they play mahjong when i was happily playing with the cute dog..i also wan a dog!!headed to a pub and evi and aikho came..

headed to a prata shop and pig's friend ted ate 17 prata in 27 mins..not bad..haha..nice job...

actually intend to go evi sis house and stay but we headed home around 4 am..too tired so i when home..

friday..

had banquet service at tuas,its a prviate company event..alots of vip and vvips.. and ang mohs...

alot of stupid prevert taking photos of us and doing stupid things..crazy ppl...if i not working..i will pour a cup of water on their crazy heads..kelvin and joanathan are very good.they protect us from those drunken and help us to serve that drunken's de table..and also offer help to help mi take the dish to prevent mi from walking thru those workers..thanks to all guys tat day..

9:47 PM

Saturday, November 24, 2007

sorry...sorry for tat being there for you when you need mi the most.. i was so shock and disappointed when i heard wat happen but i feel super heart pain ..much much more then disappointment,i tot we share everything?? how come need ppl to come tell mi wat have you done..? you know i will always be there for you de..but why you choose to hid it from mi..i really very very sad...i tot i was the second you who can really share anything?? wat happen to all the deals and promises we made?i swear to god i will do anything and everything for you..as long as i can and i wont complaint..even i cant help you..i will try my best to ask for help..but you nv even approach mi and tell mi wat happen and how can i help..maybe its hard to say but you noe i wont throw you onli not helping you or look down on you de.. you already noe all my deepest secret..every single thing i tell you,i share with you and cry with you..but you choose to handle it yourself.. i am truely sorry tat i didn make out enough time for you...but i swear to god and everyone can be withness tat from today onwards..i will do anything to help you solve and settle problems tat i can handle.. its not entirely your fault..i am at wrong too.cause i really don noe wat happen and i nv ask or help..but since now i noe..i will help you in any ways TRUST MI...i wil never ever let you fight the battle onli.. when i need you are always there for mi..but mi leh..stu pid mi always don have time for you and i didn understand how you feel and how helpness state you are in..i now keep thinking i feel like killing myself..WHY...WHY i nv even bother to ask and when you ask mi do something regarding wat happen i nv help!! STUP ID MI!!GRRRRRR.... I HATE MYSELF FOR BEING SUCH A LOUSY PERSON NOT HELPING SOMEONE TAT IS SO CLOSE TO MI.. i mention tat i will nv do things i regret..yea i don regret for not helping her..cause i noe myself regret wont help..the more wise decision is to help her and hold her up..with all my best and all my stength... don ask mi wat happen..sorry but i cant betray her.. i just need sometime to face the facts , calm down and handle it..

3:48 PM

Friday, November 23, 2007

my school is like full of cats and kitten..actually intend to bring one home..but i knew mom will kill mi..so reluctantly i leave the cat..its so cute althought its claws are so sharp..ouch pain when i carry..but i still like animal so so so much!think i should go zoo to work..haha then can interact with animal..

had my tr today..tired...then went to mac...

tml will be a long day..

going to have tr from 10 am - 3 pm..then work ,also serving..from 4 to 10.30pm..think i will be zombie when i get home...

i am crazy..now always work..i also don noe why..maybe to prove to ppl tat i am not a gal tat onli noe how to take money from mummy and shop and shop non stop..i can support myself and not depending on any one..but how ppl think abt mi i don care la..as long as i noe i am not can leh..althought i do spend lotss of my mum and dad de $$ but when i get my pay i will still buy them things and give them $$ even i don have le ..

remember last time i got a pay of 200..its is onli a little la..but i give 120 to my mum and 50 to my dad..left 30...but i feel happy..cause its more meaningfull to give them rather then shopping and spending on things just for yourself..

from young i was taught how to be a good daughter,a good sister,a good friend, a good granddaughter or even a good gf..but seriously..how good i am..i seriously don noe..but i will work to the best to fulfil the about GOODS..

no body is perfect..but we can work to perfect..

sometimes i will wonder..have a did my part to be a good friend??have i understand my parents enough and really well prepare to share all of their loads.??have i visit my grandparents often enough and spent time with them??or have i always be there for mi my sis when she needs mi..??will i be 24 hours tat for my bf when he needs mi??

my mind is full of questions..in life,not everything is nicely plan for you de..you have to work it out yourself..

but i nv regret..cause i knew tat i do everything using my heart to do and trying to do it to the best..people ask mi..when you are giving a chance to rewind or stop the time..will you?? my ans is no..cause life have to move on..its all fated wat will happen,instead of complainting it, accept it and change it...tis is wat life is about..facing obstacles,facing all sorts of problems.tat will make your day like shit..but when you can solve..you are the god man..even small problems like your house's fan spoilt and you fix it..you will feel great too..its human nature

instead of having a dull life to be nobody..i wanna to be somebody not to show ppl i am great or to attract attention but to let myself noe tat..i didn pay off my time of living in tis world..cause i do things tat i enjoy and nv regret..

if i have to regret..omg...i will be a very very negative person le..haha

for wat..always think of sad things.live life happy..always smile..nothing will help if you keep thinking..instead solve it,face it ,handle it and you will find tat the door to happiness and successful life will always be open for you

12:34 AM

Wednesday, November 21, 2007

had my practical in cooking on monday...cooking roasted chicken with gravey kai lan,baked potatoes and also onion soup with cheese toast..

i hate ppl who break their promises and give false hopes.

my dad when china last time so everytime my practical cooking lesson,the food i brought home he didn get a chance to eat..then on sunday..i tell him.."daddy,tml i cook again..tis time you must eat..k,sis eat b4 le..mummy also..your turn..must must must eat...ok??"

then he say yea..he will definately eat on monday..i was so excited to let him eat cause its the first time he taste my cooking skills and i nv touch the food i prepare instead i da bao all home for him to try..i keep inside the kitchen to prevent my greedy cousin to come eat..cause they came my house to play mahjong..i wait and wait and wait..

sadly to say...he didn came home to stay last night..he when to my ah ma house and stay..i was so disappointed,end up i threw the food away...I WAS JUST SAD TAT HE ALWAYS GIVES MI EMPTY PROMISES WHICH I HATE THE MOST!

headed to timah today to check out the dance lesson..oh..i am loving it..i am definately learning it..even daddy say no!!laopo san and sis han pei mi go..we chat lots and lots and when to eat porridge..uncle very good..he give mi roasted eggs for free..happy..he is always so good

headed home and encounter something tat was really quite scary for mi..

I NOT SURE AM I SEEING THINGS.BUT I AM SURE THEY ARE NOT MY ILLUSION..I WAS WAITING IN THE BUS INTERCHANGE AND I SAW BUS 920 TURNING IN..THEN I SAW ONE OLD WOMAN AND ONE MAN SITTING IN THE BUS..HEAD FACING DOWN..I TOT THE DRIVER GOING TO STOP THE BUS TO LET THEM ALIGHT BUT HE DIDN..HE STRAIGHT GO AND PARK THE BUS.THEN HE ALIGHT THE BUS AND SWITCH OFF THE ENGINE WITH THE TWO PERSON INSIDE..THEN I FACE THE DOOR DIRECTLY BUT I DIDN SEE ANYONE ALIGHTING AFTER HE ALIGHT..cause its a neighbour bus so the driver use back the same bus..then after 15 mins gone..he drove the bus to the bus stop where i am standing and he open the door..just in front of mi were the two old man and woman..wow my goose bumps all come out..shit..they were facing down again..i don dare to look but like no body notice them..untill i drop off they were still facing down..AM I SEEING THINGS...BUT REALLY NO ONE NOTICE THEM AT ALL..I AM THE ONLI ONE KEEP PEEPING.

12:03 AM

Sunday, November 18, 2007

so cute..ji hun look lke tourist.i like..haha

gal power!!+ji hun..haha

sleep late yesterday but woke up early today...whole class was being drag down to expo as CTIS..DIAO..

headed down to expo for the food fair and also go support my fellow classmates who are going to attend the amazing waiter competition...sadly they didn win but they did their best go..jia you gals..you all are good up there...yea

god i spent so much $$ on the food there..non stop eating and eating..

headed home and prepare to go watch movie...we watch beowulf...the show is not bad...can go show..haha...gals who are emtional should prepare some tissue along..haha..guys...console the gal~~!haha

cooking tml...i don care..dad and mum must try my cooking!!haha

we saw the hip hop dancing competition..i am registering for dance lesson tml..finally..!!

IT IS THE 17TH AGAIN.. and i meet up my boos at town...we had fun and took some memorable newprints...its beens 2 years 1 month le..time fly so fast..can imagine we already nv study together in a same school for 1 year le..miss those days...

i miss you gals..and also shishi and chun shuen..haha

then they went home but i meet up baobei to go balcony to drink..and we chat lots and lots of things....we are on the same boat wor..baobei..haha

i still prefer strawberry margarita then chocolate mint maritini...tat mint drink sucks..!!