Sunday, October 28, 2007
tis is our past..i draw it myself and sew it needle by needle myself..
and noe..i got to forget it myself. and i already did tat..
i seldom have emo post...and i hope i have less of it..
moving on is part of life..
having memories is a wonderful thing
everytime going thru places i will start thinking.
i didn say yes to those i should because i noe i cant move on yet..
because i noe i cant let go..its silly to hold on to somethings tat you cant..
i noe tis theory but i just cant follow..because i was sad
listening to songs,passing thru memorable places,seeing familiar stuffs about the past just make mi wonder...and bring mi back to the past again..
but no more..cause I QUIT..
should i say out how i feel..YES I SHOULD..
for the past few weeks..i am living in sadness and loneliness,
wat making mi survive us our memories and the things you give mi..
i nv mention to anyone how much i miss you
i nv tell anyone how hurtful i feel
because i can handle my feelings well
if i can rewind thing back i wont..because i noe we are not compatible and we will not be happy..
althought things nv work out..but at least we tried..it is painful for mi to let go..but i did it.
saying all these not because i am weak..its because i wan to let go and shout out loudly"you have onces occupied my heart deeply b4,letting mi to do things i nv imagine,letting mi feel happy,letting mi wan to see you every single day..but since loving you tis way is wrong..then..i have nothing to say.."
you wanted a mature love..and i cant give..]
wats mature love??about being able to survive for not seeing each other??
i don noe abt it..maybe i am still being childish believing tat seeing you will fill my day with light.. peharps i am wrong..i love you but i love you in a wrong way..
tats all the past and now..
everything is like a play...,like a drama,like a movie
all play has to end,all drama has to stop,all movie has to come to a beautiful fullstop
and my fullstop is nicely dotted onto this relationship i had onces...
goodbye to the past..
I AM HAPPY TAT I DON HAVE TO STRUGGLE FOR IT AGAIN..BUT MOVING ON HAPPILY..
11:35 PM
tis is our past..i draw it myself and sew it needle by needle myself..
